In my quest to minimize, I moved sicklife.work to novice.im, following are the post from the site.
Saturday, June 13, 2020 @ 7:22:49 am
06132020 @ 01:13:29
Saturday, June 13, 2020 @ 10:34:53 am
Sunday, June 14, 2020 @ 9:36:32 pm
Monday, June 22, 2020 @ 12:33:27 pm
Putting my best efforts to start to build my momentum. I feel this heavy weight that is upon me, that prevents me from accomplishing anything that I wish in accomplishing. I have ideas and plans to do things, but are slowly crushed by procrastination and time, as my mind delays my plans for accomplishing anything to the later hours of the day, I am then faced with when the day has comes to an end, and my thoughts eases my mind with, “I can do this tomorrow.” But when I wake up, my mind is blank, like a white piece of paper, empty. My thoughts come back and I begin to be excited of what I can accomplish, only to follow the same routine as the day before. I believe that I can get assistance from books, recordings and videos on will power, how to beat procrastination, goals and tasks list, only to end up having that what I thought would assist me in conquering myself, become the things that cripple me and will become the cause of what I wanted to be solved from. Instead of inching towards my goals and ambitions, I am backing away with reading, listening and watching large amounts of materials on the subjects of self help.
Today, I changed my mindset to “forge on.”
I did learn from all the materials of self help (stopping procrastination, time scheduling/management and tasks creation). I will allot myself a time schedule what I want to do, including scheduling my time schedule! This is the only way I have been able to stay focused in completing a task that I have set for myself. If I have scheduled something, I follow through no matter what and will meet that schedule to the end (sleepy eyes and all). Distractions will come, OH THEY WILL COME, but wave them off (write down or otherwise to remove from thinking) and continue with what was scheduled. My mind will try to trick me in doing other minor things that will only take a “second” but will curve me from completing anything, so again, wave of the temptation.
Like a rocket going to the moon, or a ship sailing to another land, make the slight adjustments (deny distractions) to reach my goal(s). But first, like a the trust of the rocket to lift the rocket of the launch pad, I must build my momentum to lessen the weight that prevents me from moving forward.
Weekly updates will keep me accountable for my actions.
Goal: Quality Control Assurance
Next update June 29, 2020 @ Noon.
Tuesday, June 23, 2020 @ 11:59:00 pm
I lost my temper and went into rage. I could not control myself, even though inside my head, I could hear myself say,”calm down!” I do not know if the cause was external, the heat (hot day in the 70’s) or the yelling of the kids. Maybe the cause was internal, wanting to succeed (more money), degree/certifications, and just finish things that I want to learn and complete. I do not know, or maybe I do and just do not want to face the demon, but I do not ever want to have that feeling again! I apologized to my family for my actions, and promised that I will never become that person again.
Thursday, June 25, 2020 @ 8:46:04 am
After work, the family when to Mamang’s house in West Seattle. The traffic to West Seattle is becoming worse, as more people are going back to work and the West Seattle bridge/freeway is closed, due to “cracks found.” We then took Mamang to visit the doctor, as she has been complaining of shoulder pains. After the doctor, to Safeway, then McDonald’s. Then to Mamang’s house, ate dinner. We took Mamang to Lynnwood to stay the night, as the family would like to take Mamang to pick strawberries tomorrow. When we got home, I did more work (I do not know why), then at about 11:00 PM I watched the movie You should have left with my daughter. Mum got upset that we were up so late.
Thursday, June 25, 2020 @ 8:48:21 am
Another day and more opportunities… I have to get my act together.
I found that my other sites have corrupted data. I am really thinking of scrapping everything and have only one site. The more I have, this is in general, the more I have to maintain. I believe that is what I will do, yes… Now just have to plan and implement.
A minimalist life… 🤔
Friday, June 26, 2020 @ 8:57:31 am
Saturday, July 4, 2020 @ 11:15:30 am
Where does my time go? Where I use most of my time, that is what I will be good at! Think about about that, “Where I use most of my time, that is what I will be good at.” So question what I do, “Is this something I want to be good at?” I only have so little time… Is this something I really want to use my time on?
There is no going back in time…
There is no going back in time…
Sunday, July 5, 2020 @ 12:21:21 pm
Starting my turn around!
I will complete my tasks by September 30, 2020 and start my new beginning on October 1, 2020. Like a butterfly, I will have to go through a complete metamorphosis. As the old saying, “Keep doing what you have been doing, you will keep getting what you have been getting.” I will have to change, not only the things that I do, but also how I do them. I will have to change everything about me, to change me. I will have to create a new beginning!
As I continue this journey called life, I discover that I have many options, and depending on the option that I choose, that too will provide me a world of options. The most important of when I choose an option, what I do with that option. What I do with an option is up to me. I can become stagnant and let all other options just still or be paused, but the longer an option stays in a position, the less the option becomes an opportunity. An example, if I earned a dollar, I have an option to make that dollar work to make another dollar, or I can spend that dollar to fulfill a want. I then gave my option to create another dollar to someone else and now I will have to find anther way to again earn another dollar. My other option is to continue to build my skills and knowledge, as in the dollar example, instead of spending my dollar, I invest the dollar. Unlike staying stagnant and spending, developing my skills and gaining knowledge is like investing myself, like the dollar. Soon this will compound itself and will bring more opportunities, then I will no longer have to look for opportunities, opportunities will come to me.
So change, evolve… Just as each stage of the butterfly serves a purpose, so does my life.